Philosophy
“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.” – Marie Curie
I have always had a deep appreciation for philosophy. I was a curious child like most are, and would ask the basic questions that I imagine everybody has considered at least once: What happens after we die? How was the world created? Does God exist? Is there such a thing as fate?
Growing up in a Christian background, the answers to these questions were readily provided, but they didn’t align with my evolving beliefs. I believed in a higher power, but not in the way that the Bible portrayed God. And when I questioned what God I believed in then, I couldn’t find my answer. So I turned to science instead.
I became interested in the theoretics of astronomy and enjoyed hearing the hypothesis about the creation of the universe and humans. But as I had in the past, I found a fault in this new system of belief. It was just too uncertain, too much room for error. These theories were always up to question, and they could never truly be proven. And in these moments, I envied the resolute faith of believers that remained elusive to me.
As I continued to grow, I couldn’t help but wonder what made me deserving of the life I lived, the great opportunities I had, and why some lovely people had such hard lives. I wondered if it was a matter of fate, perhaps God meant it to be that way. But that didn’t make sense to me. If God were a benevolent being like the Bible said He was, why so much suffering? Why create imperfect creatures when He has the power to do it all? The answer I was given is that I do not have the mind of God and that he acts in unknown ways to us. And while this made sense, I completely lost my faith in the God that Christianity presented to me.
I made peace with the confusion that I felt and decided that I would eventually be guided to the right belief system. Yet as I grew older and began to question what life path I wanted to have and what purpose I had in this world, questions and uncertainties began to follow me again. My mind was and still is a mess of unanswered questions, so I decided to start this blog as a way to organize my mind, solidify my beliefs, and perhaps find the clarity that I have been longing for.
– YOUNG SCHOLAR
